July 1893 / am i really to see you tomorrow? / and at 5 1/2. Phil says / I must be at his club at / 1/4 7. So I could have an hour / oh - people won't come will / they? wont they rush in to / look at you & be happy? / nevermind, / I am so much better - / & I worked for Amy a bit & / cur=t off a piece of her / inexplicable little nose & she says its better - but the hands I didnt do / no time to do them in / so there must be another / aft for them. / and now its evening & / we can't tell whether / to go to the water / jinks or not. / When a storm goes on / outside, then a storm / goes on inside me / electric currents & thunder / so all this afternoon / I feel mad. - & could / scream - but it is so / good for one to have / "to behave" & Amy / would think it so / odious of me if I screamed / that I have put / great restraint upon / myself. / did you ever long for / anything - oh but long, long / - longue for it? isnt it / sickening work - / will they repair all this & / make amends in another / life, with a better chance. / always & always / e