3 / Friday / nov. 1894 Oh! Another letter last / evening - that is two / yesterday - think of it / Oh do think of it - two letters in / one blessed beautiful day - what / would you do if you had two letters / from anyone who - well - who mattered / so much to you, in one day? / but I will send you a darker pencil / - I will - & not to get out of bed to / write to me - see, I can do famously / now for days & days - its true - what / are you laughing at? - it is true / And I too in reality think / your friends are ? in that ? / of health, & that is why I am / less miserable than they want to / make me. - I see there are some / ? to great ?ness and / that if you could be very cautious / at the outset - & knock off all enjoyments / & forget Amy's most unnecessary necessities / & forget & put aside all engagements, & / hurl me to the winds at such times / you would be far less often ill - but then is in you such blessed go & / force that it tempts you on. / I have been dreading your becoming / an invalid - even to making plans / for what I would do to amuse you / & work I would bring to execute / before your eyes, for their beguiling - but it would be a sad life / & I know it neednt be, if you / like, Some one said you lived / as if you didnt want to live or / didnt care much - I forget who / & that hurt me a bit - & / perhaps you can guess why it / hurt. / now this isnt fussing is it? it / is really sensible - & I wont fuss / I promise, if you give me the least / chance - but you mean life to me / - you mean everything to me and it / would be strange if I didnt care / - because I want to live, and / see & hear & think & do so / much that I can never tell you / how important life is to me - / Suddenly these days I have / gone sleepy - I could scarcely / keep my eyes open after dinner / last evening - & fell into profound / sleep at once when I was in / bed - once I woke & tried / to write to you but literally / could not strike a match / for sleepiness - so I let it alone / after all you lost nothing I was / only fit to write to you from / "chicken bedstead" - & after / I was called I still slept on this / morning, & now it is near 9 o'clock / & I must hurry breakfast & get to work. / And do you like letters so much? / do you know how many you get from / me in a year? - about four hundred / - you have had more than seven hundred already since we were / friends - dont tell anybody / that though. else they will make / deductions & come to conclusions / & be otherwise horrid - people / may think I write about once a / fortnight or three weeks - we / wont let them know the truth. / evet & ever & ever / & always your E