3 / no she didnt frighten me today / about you - & she didnt make / me jealous - oh I / wish I hadnt that in me / but I have it - & I really do think / it is the only nasty & unamiable / thing about me - but she didnt tell / me of anyone you liked & so I wasn't / made jealous - she is a dear old / thing & we are right to love her. / Tell me a full week before you / come back - that I may clear everything / away - have not one engagement - / for I want to devote myself body & / soul to you - so tell me a week before / but if you can, only tell me when all / is inevitably settled - for I should / find a disappointment very hard to / bear, my dear - it isnt life without / you - it is waiting & pausing / and all glorious life in abeyance / if I were waiting on a platform for / your train & had to wait six hours / pacing up & down I should be / happy - so I am happy now, waiting / for you - ? with a restlessness, longing / for the signal - I feel as if I had / had no life before this - nothing worth / thinking of - but that this id verily life, / & now I am sleepy - I was afraid to / open your letter because of my dream / last night - but the dream isn't true / - goodnight [drawing of a bird sleeping] / Thursday - it is dark still, but I / have waked up & turn to you / [drawing of a bird singing] / and I have cut my foot - treading on / a sharp knife - & why did I have / a knife on the floor?I dont know / but it must have dropped there - & / I keep it to sharpen pencils - and / are you sorry I have cut myself? I feel / as if I couldnt walk to-day - only / limp. / There came a very short - & very disappointed / sounding letter from Frances - vexed that / she had asked what I refused - I am / sorry to hurt, but I think she will / make these plans no more - yes I / do wish my letter had not hurt / her, with all my heart - I can't / bear to give that kind of pain. / and I will send you that / article about me, if I can find it, but / I will look well for it - the Ruddy / tale in the Pall Mall I found Georgie / gave away - if I can get it I will - it / will anyhow be published shortly with / others. - but you ought to have everything / you want in a moment, always, and as / far as I can this shall be / done. / and so Paddies fib - but is it / more than a reckless & lavish use of / imagination - if they tell a story / I suppose they cook it a little & / put garnish to it - & I suppose / from politeness they say the thing / they are wished to say - isnt / it rather fiction than untruth? / Oh from Paddies - what a desolate / tale their history is - & what beauty / in its desolation - what gifts & what / ill luck - I always think of Ireland / like this [drawing of a girl's head and of / England like / this [drawing of a man's head with whiskers in profile to the left] / [over scripted with:] no its too bad / and Scotland is much / worse - & so I wont / draw it